I'm actually super mega relieved that I've moved to Kepong Baru (very near to my current school I'm studying in), if you haven't known already. This really cuts the frills. My mom doesn't have to fetch me to and fro school. Most importantly, I do not need to wait for her for what seems like hours anymore. Hah! But rumour has it that all the sixth formers in KL will need to be garnered to a building in Desa Park City specialized merely for us, unlike the current system, where the sixth formers are dispersed to myriad different secondary schools. (aww)
So for now, my everyday morning routine is to get my arse off the bed at 6:30a.m., the most torturous moment of the day when I have to fight my eyelids closing every time I endeavor to get up. I don't get up by myself though. I have a 24/7 complaining mother who gets extremely put off if I don't become magically awake after the first time she attempted waking me up, like, saying, "Ning, 起来咯~(get up lo)" in a super tender voice. Yes, only after the very first time when she knows I stay up late every single night doing productive stuffs. *coughcough*
I'm almost always almost late to school every morning. Uh, does that even sound right? *lookup&think* It makes sense to me anyway. (lol) But I'd rather run to school every morning than to lose an extra 5-minute shuteye. It's essentiallllll. At least running is... is some sort of healthy sport in the morning. I feel like I'm speaking against my conscience. ._.
In the beginning, I thought I was only imagining things when I thought I saw a silhoutte watching me every single time I pass by that junction just near school. Apparently, I am not. There's this Indian lady standing behind her gates, clad in what looks like some two-piece clothes pervaded with some traditional Indian elements or is that simply a pyjamas? For what I can recall, she has short, black hair with lots of grey streaks and she wears a pair of glasses.
It's somewhat vague in my mind because every day I just rush pass her to be real certain I step into the school compound right before 7:15. I'm literally running like a horse. But the fact is that the way she looked perched there every morning, watching whatever I don't perceive as interesting, just bothers the hell out of me. It's kind of, creepy? She should go get breakfast with her kids or something. And I wonder if she has kids. If it's negative, then it's really saddening. Who on earth leaves their own mom standing behind the gates in the wee hours?
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Innocent Man
Have you ever felt the struggle to keep everything inside while waiting for people, your friends for instance to discover the problems and quandaries you're facing? Huuuuuuuge paradox. That's what stupid people do. Mind readers are not all over the streets. I'm one of those stupid people, really.
I don't have the guts to daringly announce my problems on Facebook anymore because I thought that is just annoying. I should be looking for solutions, not ranting and be irritating and make myself look like a fool. But since I have nowhere to pour my heart out, I always end up soaking myself up with tears. Eww, so ugly. I know right.
Anyway, here's a quote that really motivates me when I'm down, depressed and stuff. Love this quote to death.
I don't have the guts to daringly announce my problems on Facebook anymore because I thought that is just annoying. I should be looking for solutions, not ranting and be irritating and make myself look like a fool. But since I have nowhere to pour my heart out, I always end up soaking myself up with tears. Eww, so ugly. I know right.
Anyway, here's a quote that really motivates me when I'm down, depressed and stuff. Love this quote to death.
I can survive. Dying is hell. Why is living supposed to be hell?
Everything's gonna be alright. =D
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Jerk
No words can describe the degree of my foolishness.
I was so stupid.
It was too big a favour.
I should never have agreed to do it.
Now I feel like shyt.
You're a jerk, really.
I hate you.
I've lost it, my integrity. =(
Friday, October 19, 2012
MUET Essay 37/60
I do agree to the statement that studying abroad has greater prospects than studying locally. For one having financial problems, studying abroad or locally, more often than not, is not a matter that one can decide. However, if one is given the opportunity to study either abroad or locally with full financial support, what choice would he make? I believe that most individuals prefer to opt for the former. This is due to the greater prospects of studying abroad compared to locally which include stronger adaptation to working environment acquired, ample job opportunities, gaining different life experiences compared to those who study locally and getting to know cultures of other countries.
Home is where everything is made easy and comfortable for the government does take good care of its fellow people. For instance, the government is recently giving handouts of money or book vouchers for scholars to assist them financially. With the government's assistance, the path to earning a degree in university is made simple. However, people who study abroad do stand at an advantage even though they may be alone and far from their home town. Studying abroad is always thought to be of higher level of difficulties as it requires one to be a proficient user of foreign language such as French or Japanese if not the international language, English. Amidst all the quandaries, one will learn to accommodate to the environment which is utterly different from his home town without any help or assistance significant enough. They stand at an advantage for they will acquire strong adaptation to working environments and they are competent to handle their job better than those who studied locally.
Some say the perception of other people or their stereotype is not important as long as we strive for the best in whatever we do. However, in this world engulfed by materialism, this is not always the case. People are judged with tainted spectacles based on their family background, financial status or even by where they have obtained their degree or master. The Malaysian mentality is that a graduate from abroad is undoubtedly better and more capable. Of course, the employers would not think differently and I can see the rationale in this kind of mentality. Universities from abroad with good reputation are certainly producing graduates of better qualities than those of local. Hence, studying abroad does have greater prospects.
Next, one who studies abroad is open to a vast sea of job opportunities. These job opportunities, more often than not, promise a high pay which could be translated to the transformation of one's financial status. Money will not give us whatever whim we fancy but without money, almost nothing can be done in this 21st century. This may not sound convincing to the nation but it is indeed an undeniable benefit and offer to the individual. Those who study locally are deemed to contribute to their own country and this somehow can be a limitation to their own success for they are not exposed to various opportunities like how those who study abroad are.
In addition, even though Malaysia is a developing country and we have watched its success over half a decade of independence, some of its universities are still not very well equipped. There are even complaints that the lecturers are not good enough to provide the scholars with sufficient and appropriate knowledge. These shortcomings could be overcome easily only if one chooses to study abroad in a more developed country where the necessary apparatus and materials for effective learning are provided and good lecturers are promised. Therefore, it can be concluded that studying abroad provides better education for the scholars.
Latterly, the idea that Malaysian graduates lack skills like creative thinking skills, interpersonal skills and so on to name a few is widely debated. This is, however, true to some extent for they are not pushed to their limits and the ways of teaching and learning in local universities do not require one to think out of the box and present themselves in the best way possible. It is opposite for universities from abroad since their ways of teaching differ and are less rigid and more flexible which in turn, allow room for intelligence capacity. This produces graduates who are of greater ability and they will surely gain benefits when looking for jobs since people like them are more wanted.
Besides, one who studies abroad gets to know the culture of the country he is studying in. Studying abroad serves as an eye opener and is such great life experience that one who studies locally could never possibly acquire. They will learn to understand how certain things that are accepted in one society can be so strongly objected in another. They will see the beauty of other country's culture instead of being immersed and engulfed in their own. They will also have an entire different circles of friends and build up a large network of acquaintances which can be very helpful when they are out to work.
To sum up, studying abroad not only enhances the quality of education one is receiving, it is also very rewarding and promising in many ways. Like what I have mentioned, one who study abroad is held much more highly than one who studies locally. They have bigger circle of friends and better job opportunities. Not to forget, they are also more holistic and competent. Hence, it is impossible not to believe that studying abroad indeed has greater prospects than studying locally.
*I personally think I deserve a little more, just a little more than 37. TT
Home is where everything is made easy and comfortable for the government does take good care of its fellow people. For instance, the government is recently giving handouts of money or book vouchers for scholars to assist them financially. With the government's assistance, the path to earning a degree in university is made simple. However, people who study abroad do stand at an advantage even though they may be alone and far from their home town. Studying abroad is always thought to be of higher level of difficulties as it requires one to be a proficient user of foreign language such as French or Japanese if not the international language, English. Amidst all the quandaries, one will learn to accommodate to the environment which is utterly different from his home town without any help or assistance significant enough. They stand at an advantage for they will acquire strong adaptation to working environments and they are competent to handle their job better than those who studied locally.
Some say the perception of other people or their stereotype is not important as long as we strive for the best in whatever we do. However, in this world engulfed by materialism, this is not always the case. People are judged with tainted spectacles based on their family background, financial status or even by where they have obtained their degree or master. The Malaysian mentality is that a graduate from abroad is undoubtedly better and more capable. Of course, the employers would not think differently and I can see the rationale in this kind of mentality. Universities from abroad with good reputation are certainly producing graduates of better qualities than those of local. Hence, studying abroad does have greater prospects.
Next, one who studies abroad is open to a vast sea of job opportunities. These job opportunities, more often than not, promise a high pay which could be translated to the transformation of one's financial status. Money will not give us whatever whim we fancy but without money, almost nothing can be done in this 21st century. This may not sound convincing to the nation but it is indeed an undeniable benefit and offer to the individual. Those who study locally are deemed to contribute to their own country and this somehow can be a limitation to their own success for they are not exposed to various opportunities like how those who study abroad are.
In addition, even though Malaysia is a developing country and we have watched its success over half a decade of independence, some of its universities are still not very well equipped. There are even complaints that the lecturers are not good enough to provide the scholars with sufficient and appropriate knowledge. These shortcomings could be overcome easily only if one chooses to study abroad in a more developed country where the necessary apparatus and materials for effective learning are provided and good lecturers are promised. Therefore, it can be concluded that studying abroad provides better education for the scholars.
Latterly, the idea that Malaysian graduates lack skills like creative thinking skills, interpersonal skills and so on to name a few is widely debated. This is, however, true to some extent for they are not pushed to their limits and the ways of teaching and learning in local universities do not require one to think out of the box and present themselves in the best way possible. It is opposite for universities from abroad since their ways of teaching differ and are less rigid and more flexible which in turn, allow room for intelligence capacity. This produces graduates who are of greater ability and they will surely gain benefits when looking for jobs since people like them are more wanted.
Besides, one who studies abroad gets to know the culture of the country he is studying in. Studying abroad serves as an eye opener and is such great life experience that one who studies locally could never possibly acquire. They will learn to understand how certain things that are accepted in one society can be so strongly objected in another. They will see the beauty of other country's culture instead of being immersed and engulfed in their own. They will also have an entire different circles of friends and build up a large network of acquaintances which can be very helpful when they are out to work.
To sum up, studying abroad not only enhances the quality of education one is receiving, it is also very rewarding and promising in many ways. Like what I have mentioned, one who study abroad is held much more highly than one who studies locally. They have bigger circle of friends and better job opportunities. Not to forget, they are also more holistic and competent. Hence, it is impossible not to believe that studying abroad indeed has greater prospects than studying locally.
*I personally think I deserve a little more, just a little more than 37. TT
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
En passant
I went home just to find the cables connecting the system unit with other hardware all unplugged. Got me exasperated. Bro, what the hell were you doing with those cables? .__.
And oh, talking about a guy I've just befriended. We are classmates and only got the chance to formally introduce ourselves to each other after school's dismissal yesterday. He gave me an impression that he is a quiet guy, rather reticent. Am I imagining things to think that he looked so tensed during lessons?
I had quite some fun passing the time with some friends when the teacher wasn't around, yet. It so happened that three of us were selected and had attended the National Service. Except that we were placed in different camps, in the different corners of Malaysia. We shared our experience, told our tales about the happenings throughout the 3-months National Service. En passant, speaking of the shooting activity in the camp, I kind of regretted that I didn't take a photo of me posing with the M16 rifle. *wannalookcool
And oh, talking about a guy I've just befriended. We are classmates and only got the chance to formally introduce ourselves to each other after school's dismissal yesterday. He gave me an impression that he is a quiet guy, rather reticent. Am I imagining things to think that he looked so tensed during lessons?
I had quite some fun passing the time with some friends when the teacher wasn't around, yet. It so happened that three of us were selected and had attended the National Service. Except that we were placed in different camps, in the different corners of Malaysia. We shared our experience, told our tales about the happenings throughout the 3-months National Service. En passant, speaking of the shooting activity in the camp, I kind of regretted that I didn't take a photo of me posing with the M16 rifle. *wannalookcool
God is watching over you, He hears you. =)
Monday, June 11, 2012
Composed
1) Today had definitely proven my distress and worries superfluous. My classmates were nothing short of cordial. And I reckon, I was being convivial if not hyperactive. I was glad I didn't look all lost and alone already.
2) The most difficult part of Malaysian University English Test (MUET) is the speaking test they said. And I could not beg to differ. During our MUET lesson just today, we were exposed to this particular speaking test. I'm not so sure that I can do very well for this test because I'd never put conversing in English into practice even in St Mary. But I hope that with the training from our teacher, Puan Geraldine, I'll be well prepared before the real test in July 2013. Yeah, we are so many months away, which is sort of good.
3) Latterly, I've been engaging myself in painting wall mural in school. Um, for the sake of some co-curricular activities points to ensure my bright future for university admission (smirking, hehe). And it's never boring to play with colours! =P
4) Mom always wanted me to walk a short distance from school to somewhere near the 99 Speedmart and she'd pick me up there. You know, to avoid the busy traffic near the school where myriad cars are so obstructed that they could scarcely move. Today after school dismissal, I could barely catch any sight of her car. After waiting for a long while, I decided I should just head home on my feet. Walking home from SMK Kepong Baru is not cool at all. It's 5km or one hour under the scorching sun. All I got in the end was being severely tongue-lashed 'cause I made her wait for almost an hour there. What luck. I must have been visually impaired or she reached there right after I was gone.
The way she reverts to the normal, good her after mentally thrashing me is driving me up the wall. Then, another displeased look. Ahhhh......
Today was a pleasant day, anyway. =)
2) The most difficult part of Malaysian University English Test (MUET) is the speaking test they said. And I could not beg to differ. During our MUET lesson just today, we were exposed to this particular speaking test. I'm not so sure that I can do very well for this test because I'd never put conversing in English into practice even in St Mary. But I hope that with the training from our teacher, Puan Geraldine, I'll be well prepared before the real test in July 2013. Yeah, we are so many months away, which is sort of good.
3) Latterly, I've been engaging myself in painting wall mural in school. Um, for the sake of some co-curricular activities points to ensure my bright future for university admission (smirking, hehe). And it's never boring to play with colours! =P
4) Mom always wanted me to walk a short distance from school to somewhere near the 99 Speedmart and she'd pick me up there. You know, to avoid the busy traffic near the school where myriad cars are so obstructed that they could scarcely move. Today after school dismissal, I could barely catch any sight of her car. After waiting for a long while, I decided I should just head home on my feet. Walking home from SMK Kepong Baru is not cool at all. It's 5km or one hour under the scorching sun. All I got in the end was being severely tongue-lashed 'cause I made her wait for almost an hour there. What luck. I must have been visually impaired or she reached there right after I was gone.
The way she reverts to the normal, good her after mentally thrashing me is driving me up the wall. Then, another displeased look. Ahhhh......
Today was a pleasant day, anyway. =)
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Dream
I like Christine Grimmie's emotion so so much.
Feel so fucked up right now. 'Cause mom's constantly feeding me with sarcasm. She has never stopped trying, you know. Then, she always turns around and acts like nothing's ever happened. And throw me another displeased look. What the......
I must convince myself I was only having a dream.
Now I am thinking one is better than two.
I'm a Worrywart
I've been such a worrywart and I'm sorry I'm still one. Sometimes I feel like I'm annoying you. Sometimes I think you're mad at me. Sometimes I think I'm worth nothing. Sometimes I think I've made the most colossal mistake in the world. What can I do to make myself see there's no need for insecurities? I. have. no. idea.
I used to think the people who post a thousand or a million statuses fueled with negativity and pessimism on Facebook should get a life. Now I think I know what they feel. They yearn for recognition. Partly to console their insecure selves. Or simply attention seeking.
I used to think the people who post a thousand or a million statuses fueled with negativity and pessimism on Facebook should get a life. Now I think I know what they feel. They yearn for recognition. Partly to console their insecure selves. Or simply attention seeking.
You made a decision that you wanted to move on, 'cause I was wrong.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Practice
A friend of mine told me she wants to make it a point to chat with at least 2 people on Facebook a day to ensure her Facebook is not only filled with once-good-friends-now-strangers. That sounds like a pretty good practice. And I've been dropping out of good practice. I used to make sure that I google every single new words that I came across whenever I was on the internet, whether I was simply chatting with a friend or reading an article. At that time, this practice made my vocabulary a little less handicapped than my peers. Then, slowly, my laziness caught me. I tended to just skip the words I didn't quite comprehend and the practice faded. Now I want to make it a point to pick up this practice of mine again. =)
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